Friday, February 12, 2010

Heart in Shreds

Posted by Purple Streak at 3:22 AM

6th February 2010


In my short life, I've truly fallen in love just once. My happiness was short lived though. My folks said NO! and made us break up. I tried to get back with him when I was in Las Gidi and we've been in touch since then ... I stupidly thought we were back on track - after just one night.

Big Mistake! I called to arrange another rendezvous recently and you coulda knocked me over with a feather from my shock at his response. He said he could not make it ... that he was on his honeymoon! L

I'm hurting seriously. I have no one to call mine and my seemingly eternal loneliness has really started affected my reasoning. All I need is someone to hold me through this storm that has become my life. *sob sob* Is that too much to ask for?! My heart and my eyes are tired of weeping. I never really tried loving anyone again ever since my first (and only time) ... Where's the encouragement to?!?!?

But I really wanna know ... what is my offence?! Loving someone?! I don't get it! Am I a victim of his personal vendetta? I did him no wrong ... unless loving him too damn much has become a crime. I was a helpless pawn in the drama that surrounded our break up. Ok, I admit, I was spineless ... I could not even as much as raise a finger in our defence but really ... could I have fought both my parents?!? Methinks he has a share of the blame too ... I was not the only coward ... what attempt did he make to save our love?! The only image I had of him was of a dog running away with its tail in between ... what happened to being a man? Ehn?

The pain is ... oh Gawd! I was gasping for breath even hours after I got his 'turn-her-down' text. I could only scream into my pillow ... and hold myself to (miserable) sleep. Funny thing is I'm not sure I've got anyone that can really relate to my situation ... I had no one to call... My best girlfriends?! Both of 'em were asleep at the time ... Ironic, innit? I've never been asleep whenever they needed me...*sigh*

Like a' said, my 'tears stream' has run outta supply... If I'd known that it would hurt this much ... that what I felt was still as intense ... I'd never had opened my door that night. Now, my heart is cold ... stone hard ... broken ... in shreds...

Yours ... in Pain,

P. Streak


Wande Stealth said...

OMG! a' don't believe it!

Nnamdi Samuel on February 13, 2010 at 4:32 AM said...

nice one

Myne Whitman on February 13, 2010 at 6:23 AM said...

Now I can leave comments

Dayzee on February 13, 2010 at 6:40 AM said...

well, well i can finally leave a comment...tru talk tho seems ur hurtin i woulda thot it was fiction but dayum!he rili did hurt u ryt?o well, seems yur tryna get over it by sharing...btw, nicely written...

Purple Streak on February 13, 2010 at 12:27 PM said...

@ Wande: u'd best believe it ... but then again, be careful what u believe ... u seen d 'this claimer' section?!?
@ N. Samuel: Nice one?!?!
@ Myne: Yeah! Now you can! Thanks a mil.
@ Dayzee: Can't tell u how much a' appreciate ur visit. Kizzez bbz!
@ Y'all: Thanks again. :*

pamela on February 21, 2010 at 3:08 PM said...

hmmmmm, you love, sometimes, it doesn't work, you hurt, you cry, you get angry and then you get okay. You will be fine. Let Go and Let God!


T-Pro said...

OMG!!! I'm speechless... You would be shocked how many people are in those shoes.

Fantastic piece.


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